Madness Takes Its Toll

So, it’s halfway through National Novel Writing Month. Hey, here’s a completely trivial question, should Novel Writing be hyphenated? Since the novel itself isn’t actually doing any writing but is the object being talked about? Or am I misguided? Any grammar freaks who can put that niggle to rest, answers much appreciated.

Where was I? Oh yes. Halfway through NaNoWriMo (it’s quicker and it saves me from worrying about the hyphen thingy) and I’m not quite on track. I’m not horrendously behind…well, yes, actually I am, who’m I kidding? To be on target to complete the 50000 words doing 1667 words a day I should have written 25000-ish by now, and I’ve actually written just under 18000. To finish on time, according to my stats page, I need to write 2146 words a day. This is actually more than do-able, assuming I can focus and sit down every day, which is easier said than done.

So what does that mean for me? First of all, I’m not throwing in the towel. There are a few reasons for this: first, I want the GLORY, the satisfaction of saying that I did it. Does that make me a bad person? Probably. Tough. I also want the writing software Scrivener, which is being offered at a 50% discount to all NaNo winners. I’ve had this on demo and absolutely love it, so I’ll be getting it anyway, but I would rather get it half price! And third, the t-shirts the winners can buy are just so darn pretty. I want one. This definitely makes me a bad person. Of all the motivations I’ve heard for finishing a novel, “I want a t-shirt” has not been among them. The thing is, if I say, aloud, “I’m not going to make it, I’m giving up on NaNoNow but I’ll still write the novel” I probably won’t. I’ll probably go back to my pre-NaNo work in progress and both of them will creep along at the pace that I have the luxury of at the minute being an unpublished, uncontracted writer. If I say I still have a chance and I’m still in there, I’m more likely to push myself and get this written, even if I end up not ‘winning’.

Have I learned anything so far? Well, yes, actually. First of all, it’s good deal more difficult to turn off my inner editor than I thought. I’m constantly checking my research, rewriting my last sentence (because I CANNOT let typos go. I just can’t. Don’t make me.), thinking about what I’m writing. Not so much in plot terms but more like “Is this sentence even English?” This gives me confidence in a strange kind of way, more for the future than for this particular project, but also that this project has some potential in it. I may be deluded in thinking this, it may a leap of logic, but please don’t tell me until December 1st.

Second, it’s sort of a taster of what life as a Real Writer is like. Before you eat me, I mean a writer with a deadline, a contract, having to make time wherever possible, having to squeeze writing time in around family, having something other than the ‘muse’ making me write, and having to sit down and write nearly every day. It puts a little bit of extra pressure on myself to lift my writing from ‘something I do when I have time’ to ‘something I make time to do’, which was beginning to happen but NaNo has made me prioritise it more. And I like it. This also gives me confidence that I’m doing that which I was Born To Do. Not in that my writing is some great gift to the world, just that there’s nothing I can do better or enjoy more on a long-term sustained basis, and that gives me this kind of satisfaction. The satisfaction I get from my family and faith is entirely different; with writing, it’s just about me.

Finally, that writing is a) much harder than it looks (I know, I know, those of you who’ve ‘got’ that are going “well, dur”) and b) a thousand times more satisfying. I started this blog post feeling pretty down in the dumps because of a) but I’ve finished it feeling energised and motivated because of b).

So, madness is definitely taking its toll. But I’m loving it.

10 thoughts on “Madness Takes Its Toll”

  1. Darling, I completely agree that it should be National Novel-Writing Month, if that’s any comfort to you.

    Well done for pressing on – as well as a t-shirt, you’ll also have my admiration ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. You are an inspiration, Becca. I have more or less given up – not on the book, but on finishing the first draft in November. But then there are the other ideas jostling away between my ears… I should follow your example, I know I should, but…

  3. It absolutely is (a comfort to me). Although Ciara disagrees with me. It just makes more sense our way, doesn’t it?

    And thank you ๐Ÿ™‚ x

  4. An inspiration? *preens* Thank you!

    I don’t think you should follow my example unless it’s right for you – I just work better with that extra push. I am, as you know, the queen of faffing, procrastinating and foostering.

    But you better finish that book one way or another… ๐Ÿ˜‰

  5. Shouldn’t there be an apostrophe in Novel’s?

    Shouldn’t “I’ll have two coke’s please” always have an apostrophe (just like that).

    The dog looked after it’s kitten. That’s right. Yeah?

    I have fifteen sock’s. Now I get it.

    Oooh and I know you hate it when people write: “It’s time for bed”. There’s no apostrophe there, shhhurely!

    My work here is done ๐Ÿ˜‰

  6. I just wanted to say I totally understand as I am behind too. And I’m plodding on too. I’m not sure if I will finish in November, but I will finish eventually.

    Good luck with it xx

  7. Nope! Sadly I have to admit defeat for this year, but hopefully all for very good reasons. More things happened at home after writing this post, and it’s just not possible in my current situation to catch up. Much respect to those who do complete, and thanks for reading!

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